This is Just Me: August 2007

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

And I wonder...

Saturday I realized that it had been 14 years to the day since my mom passed away. Of course, I revisited the events that night & the days that followed. It seems as though they were just the other day, not so many years ago.

I also saw the other night, that one of my Myspace friends had passed away.

Time passes too quickly. And I wonder........

Thoughts have run through my mind because of these events, although so many years apart. (It doesn't take much for my mind to wander from one thought to the next, in a chain reaction.) Before I start, just remember...this is MY humble opinion.

I went through 12 years of Catholic school. I took a mandatory Religion class every year. Our Senior year, we had a class on Death & Dying. It was basically a class to teach us how to handle death, not on the questions that you would think a Religion class would want to teach you, like what happens when you die?

If what I remember of the two faiths I have studied is incorrect, by all means, tell me. As Catholics, we were taught that when we die, our soul moves on. I learned that there was Hell (for the truly evil), Heaven (for the saintly) & Purgatory (where pretty much about everybody else ends up). They never addressed what happens after Purgatory. I guess you have the opportunity to go on to Heaven or Hell from there, after "Judgment Day".

After I married, my ex thought it was a good idea to explore the Jehovah Witnesses. They have a completely different opinion of what happens in death. They teach that "at death, humans cease to exist. The dead know, feel and experience absolutely nothing." Heaven is reserved for a certain amount (144,000) of people; thus, not every person goes to heaven. There's a calculation surrounding this number, but I won't explain it now, because that would be a blog in itself. The dead will be resurrected eventually to live in a Paradise on Earth, as in the Garden of Eden's description.

The jury is still out for me on what I actually believe. I lean more towards the JW's thinking. I don't think that you know anything once you're dead. Alan provided me with proof of that in his blog last week.

What do you think happens in death? I'm all about weighing out information from all sources & making my own decision.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Hodgepodge

Wow...it's been a while since I've blogged....who'd have thunk that I could keep quiet so long?

My second job really exhausts me, but the extra money helps. However, I'm being taken advantage of, & it aggravates me to no end. I've learned to speak up a little though, & mentioned something casually to the manager tonight. That's about the best I can muster, because it's totally out of character for me to complain. To explain would take a whole blog, so I'll just leave it at that for now. Bleckh!

Victoria's contest is bursting at the seams with comments & votes. How in the world can she & the judges possibly keep up with all of the votes? And that's not including the email votes! My eyes cross every time I go through the blog comments there! Kudos to her for undertaking such a daunting task! Who knew?

I don't have more than a few friends here on Myspace that I know in real life, not that I wouldn't like to meet more. Making friends here is different, since they've already read most of the things you've said, good or bad. I like to be able to vent if I want, or speak my mind, & there are times when I wouldn't want friends & family to read what I have to say. Part of it is always trying to keep peace (a huge flaw, I know), & part is that it gives me freedom. I don't know how partners do it. Is it possible to never have a thought they wouldn't share with the other person? That's admirable, & I'm not being sarcastic.

My friend, Anita, wrote a blog a few weeks ago about "friends" deleting themselves from Myspace friendships. I know there are times when profiles are deleted by Myspace for whatever reason, & there are times when we clean up our lists. Do you ever wonder if somewhere out there in cyberland, that you've touched (in a good way), & we've just deleted them? Perhaps you make a person's day just by saying hello, but you'll never know?

The one thing I've always liked about my favorite movie of all time, "It's a Wonderful Life" (the old original), is the part where George Bailey finds out how everyone's lives would be if he had never been born. The thought fascinates me. Eh, but who will ever know?

Hmm...probably enough rambling for one night...or morning. I'm surprised I'm still awake!

Would you believe that I have never had even two pages of comments on a blog? Is it something I've said?? lol

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Before the Grim Reaper strikes...yes, another TAG!

I have been tagged by

~Sweet Mistress~

This time, you have to list 10 things you would like to do before your number is up...meet the Grim Reaper....

I have MANY things I'd like to do, see & experience before I die, both feasible & not (there aren't rules listed as to feasibility). So, without further ado:

1. I would like the ability to not live from paycheck to paycheck. Perhaps have an extra buck (or two) left at the end of the week.

2. I would like a trip to Germany & Ireland so that I can do some proper research into my family tree.

3. I would like to see my sons realize their career goals & not get lost in day-to-day issues.

4. I would like to meet Myspace friends IRL.

5. I would like a cute, reliable car that I don't have to pray a Mantra of "Please God, don't let me break down" or "Please God, let the car start" every time I get into it.

6. I would like to live in a big old house. One that can handle family gatherings when my sons have families of their own.

Isn't that house pretty? Well, I could do without the yellow, but....

7. I would like a computer that can handle viewing profiles without locking up.

8. I would like to live less than 20 minutes away from work.

9. I would like to see Las Vegas just once.

10. I would like to take a vacation & enjoy myself without penny-pinching.

Now for the tag: yeah, I'm tagging....you're not getting off THAT easily! I'll be nice....I'll only pick 5 people.

†Victoria Vicious†

Kara531

Edahi

Tanya

**looking around at the readers***

LOGI....no no, Ala.....alright, you two can be safe....

Lastly, I pick:

Nurseratchet..

If you've been tagged before, or WISH to be tagged....link us up!

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

It's been awhile...

since I've played this game.
I have been tagged by

Barbie

The rules are: Once you have been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 8 people to be tagged, list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says "you are tagged" on their profile and tell them to read your latest blog.

Here we go.....

1. I like most types of music, depending on my mood, but my most favorite is Christmas music. I listen to it all year long.

2. I am addicted to Myspace, blogs mostly. Addicted may be a strong word....I can click out of it ANY TIME I WANT!

3. I lead a pretty boring life of work & sleep, mainly in that order, & really don't mind that I'm not always out & about.

4. I love time alone. Not just in my thoughts, but physically alone.

5. I love thunderstorms, & like to sit on the porch to watch them.

6. I've always hated being an only child.

7. I have a super-huge pen fetish/addiction. I'm always collecting pens, but rarely write anything by hand.

8. I sleep so soundly that I barely hear the alarm clock, with two exceptions. My sons can just say "Mom", & I'm awake in a flash (although, not necessarily coherent & functioning). Funny how that works.

9. I like to pimp out my friends. No no, not PIMP them OUT....draw attention to them & their blogs. Does that sound better?

10. My favorite wrestler is Shawn Michaels. Not only does he have some great moves, he's HOT! Now, who amongst you would've known that I've watched wrestling?