Is it over?

I think I've come to a revelation! And, since blog writing is way cheaper than seeing a therapist, here I am!

I know that I have to end the relationship I'm currently in; I've known it almost from the beginning, why I've stayed so long is just a shame. I believe that my lack of motivation to end things stems from a couple different reasons. At first, I thought it was financial. Going from two incomes to one. Then, I thought that perhaps I was just afraid of flying solo. But I've been doing a lot of hard thinking, & I don't think either of those are it.

This is my newest thoughts:

1. I hate the thought of the actual face-to-face owning up to how I feel, & his reaction to it.
2. Even though I know that ending it would be beneficial to ME, I just don't feel the urge to go through all it entails. It's like being told smoking isn't good for you. We all know it, but it doesn't make us give it up....until we finally can't breathe because of it, or worse.

Now, finding the courage to just do it, to take the steps.....that's the hard part.